Life is all about taking chances; never having to ask the question, “What if?” This week I took a risk and it didn’t turn out the way I wanted. I’m okay with it because I tried and now I won’t have the ‘what if’ questions constantly running through my mind.
For a few months, I’ve had a crush on someone–of course, I’m not going to say who. I had planned to ask him out this week since over the weekend I went to a personal event of his. It was the first time I saw him outside of our normal realm. I met with him earlier this week, but since he always makes me a nervous wreck, I chickened out. I did the wussy thing and asked him out by text message. Something to the effect that I know he’s busy, but if he wanted to get together some time, call me up.
I got the blow off. He said possibly Beerfest, since we had talked about that earlier, but that he’s not looking for a relationship. First of all, to all the men: when a girl asks you out, that does not mean she wants to marry you tomorrow. She may not even be looking for anything serious, so don’t assume you know what she wants. You don’t and you probably never will because women are complicated creatures. In fact, so complex that half of the time, we don’t even know what we want ourselves.
The next day, I posted a status on FaceBook and he commented on it, but it was strictly business. I have to see him today, so it may be awkward. At least now I know that nothing will come of it. I may have gotten rejected, but it’s a part of life unfortunately. And rejection is something I’m not used to, so it may be a lesson for me. Not everything is going to go the way I want and I have to live with that.
