Ashley Mashley

story of my life and random ramblings..

Becoming Ashley Mashley

Ashley Mashley is a nickname that I’ve grown to love and embrace. At a family barbeque, an uncle gave me the nickname, not knowing how well it would stick.

Last year, I had joined eHarmony to start finding a broader dating pool. After talking to this guy online for a bit, I told my family that I had gone on my first date. They relentlessly questioned me about the guy. I had only been on one date with him so I didn’t know much about him yet: his first name, his age, his job, etc.

Then they asked, “What’s his last name?”

“You know what, I don’t know!” I replied.

“You don’t know his last name? What if his last name is Mashley?? Then you get married and you’d be Ashley Mashley!” my uncle responded.

Everyone thought it was the most hilarious thing they had ever heard. I, on the other hand, didn’t think it was funny at all. The nickname never lost it’s appeal and they’ve all been calling me Ashley Mashley ever since that night.

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Dreams at Night: They Can Get a Little Crazy!

I have had some odd dreams lately.. they all involve people I know (or have known) but not in a realistic format. I think dreams are some form of subconscious thinking but figuring them out proves difficult sometimes.

A couple of nights ago, I dreamed that I was dating a guy friend of mine. In real life, we have been on one date but realized we just weren’t what the other was looking for. So in my dream, we were dating and it was getting serious. He came over to my family’s house for Thanksgiving along with his mom–who I’ve never met. I was sitting with my sister and we were drinking a glass of wine. Later that night, I heard his mom talking crap about me; saying that she didn’t like me and that I was a drunk, when in my dream I only had one glass of wine. I was unhappy that she didn’t like me and went up to him after everyone had left.

“Your mom hates me and thinks I’m a drunk!”

He replied, “You can’t please everyone.”

“But it’s your Mom! I want her to like me. I don’t even know why she thinks I’m a drunk when I only had one glass of wine,” I retorted.

“It’s not a big deal.”

Of course, in my dream, I thought it was a huge deal! But I don’t even know why I would have a dream about dating him. Weird! It’s probably because the last time I saw him, he looked damn good… I told my sister about my dream the next morning. She’s met his mom before and she thought it was odd since his mom is really nice. I really don’t know what to think about that one.

Then last night, I dreamed of an ex-boyfriend. In reality we only dated for a few months and it never got serious because of his wandering eye, so I broke it off. In this dream, I was with my mom at a BounceU or Discovery Zone type of place, I guess for a kid’s birthday. Somehow he found out I was there and stopped by. It creeped me out since I hadn’t talked to him for months, but my mom ended up telling him where we were. (Which is not out of character for my mom. Love you mom!) He started to beg me back, saying that he missed me, etc., etc. I really did not care. He was even getting on his knees begging! I told him to get up off the floor. I didn’t care about anything he was saying, I wanted him up and out. Even my mom was pleading for me to get back with him but I wasn’t about to deal with his drama again.

I don’t know why I keep having dreams about guys of my past… I had another one about my ex-fiancé, but don’t remember the scene. Probably for the best though. I guess I’m missing that romantic aspect of my life right now. It’s always fun to have someone to share everything with, but for now, I’m enjoying just being me!

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Tomorrow is Not Promised Today

Life is all about taking chances; never having to ask the question, “What if?” This week I took a risk and it didn’t turn out the way I wanted. I’m okay with it because I tried and now I won’t have the ‘what if’ questions constantly running through my mind.

For a few months, I’ve had a crush on someone–of course, I’m not going to say who. I had planned to ask him out this week since over the weekend I went to a personal event of his. It was the first time I saw him outside of our normal realm. I met with him earlier this week, but since he always makes me a nervous wreck, I chickened out. I did the wussy thing and asked him out by text message. Something to the effect that I know he’s busy, but if he wanted to get together some time, call me up.

I got the blow off. He said possibly Beerfest, since we had talked about that earlier, but that he’s not looking for a relationship. First of all, to all the men: when a girl asks you out, that does not mean she wants to marry you tomorrow. She may not even be looking for anything serious, so don’t assume you know what she wants. You don’t and you probably never will because women are complicated creatures. In fact, so complex that half of the time, we don’t even know what we want ourselves.

The next day, I posted a status on FaceBook and he commented on it, but it was strictly business. I have to see him today, so it may be awkward. At least now I know that nothing will come of it. I may have gotten rejected, but it’s a part of life unfortunately. And rejection is something I’m not used to, so it may be a lesson for me. Not everything is going to go the way I want and I have to live with that.

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